To overflow with happiness as I do, I could simply cry take me away today, I want to feel this forever!
Something has been missing for a few years, I thought I knew how to get it back, how to fill the empty puncture that aches ever single night...excruciatingly positioned above my heart .
With each cry for help I was asking for everything, I wanted to be where I knew I should be. I screamed for answers, I believe I gave up on myself but amazingly you never did and you kept giving me enough strength to try again.
I reached a point where I questioned you, “are you even there”? Come on prove it, if your here for me, how come you’re not answering me! That hurt reaching that point, I’d never felt so empty, you should have gave up after that remark, but you never gave up, in fact from the very first moment I started demanding answers you had actually been right there telling me, I just couldn’t hear it. I only needed to drop the selfish shield, stop crying, quite myself and listen to you. You were there the whole time; you were patiently calling me and telling me the answers I needed. But I simply never heard it over my selfish cries.
It was only this weekend when I stopped and listened and I heard you!
You gave me the answer, I was trying to fill the missing part with the wrong thing, the answer and the reason was “you”.
I was missing you.
I thought I knew you, I thought I heard you, but deep down I couldn’t feel you.
That has CHANGED you have filled me again.
I will listen and walk for you forever.
You are my solution always, I could never walk away from that, ever.
I feel stronger than I have ever.
